Blog 2: Renascence

My topic is quite mysterious and unique. Now I want you to know something happening to me recently. Before I have seen a film named 127 Hours. The first character is an adventurous man and his arm was trapped in a gash of the mountain he climbed. He was boxed there wholly three days and he finally escaped by cutting his arm. Then I thought I would never encounter such things because I was not brave enough to try dangerous things . Nevertheless God might want to play jokes on me. Something serious happened inadvertently to me about three months ago. During this period, I was painful, frightened and even desperate sometimes. I could not concentrate on my study. But I must pretend to be happy all the time. Once one meet obstacles, he tend to think his life deeply. When peers around me are at ease, I become serious about life and have thought a lot about the meaning of my life. Gradually I realize that what I really want to do is contributing to world and helping people who are needed.
Another thing I have considered recently is the fear. At the beginning, I was afraid of the bad result which might happen in the future. Whereas when I became poised about that thing after a long-time struggling, I still feared. And when everything is proved to be ok in previous days, which means that I can begin to lead a normal life, I even cannot stop my fear and anxiety. In my view, there are two reasons. First, I need some time to recover from this quite unusual and dangerous experience. Second, I understand that what I feared is fear itself. I have decided to be strong, but I cannot escape from my fear. What scared me later is not the thing but my subjective thinking.
There is really renascence in my life. I will try my best to recover and be myself again.
I am sorry I cannot tell you the details about this episode. Just remember that no matter where you are, TAKE CARE.