I’m not scared of failure, but I either cannot tolerate it. Recently, to be honest, I encountered one of my biggest waterloos in my studying aspect. I have been depressed for a moment, but now I am not only fine, but even more decisive. I want to write it down as a SM3 blog, because I want a scar to warn me that I have lost something important and I must fight my way out of this situation.
I failed in all tests we had recently. When I failed at the first time, I though it was just a slip. As the times constantly increasing, I finally found that there was something wrong for sure.
In China, I had not force myself to strengthen my English vocabulary and other aspects for almost 2 years. The first reason was that my knowledge of English at that time could easily handle this subject. Secondly, my experience in the U.S. Completely doused my motivation to learn English, because it was so smooth and successful that I could easily communicate with locals there and made many friends, thus at that time,I did not think that I should push myself too hard to learn English further. Therefore, my English almost stagnated though I could still get high scores in our high school English exams, which were much easier than the exams in other provinces. Even worse, my stock of vocabulary even started to get less and less. When I came to Singapore, I was still unaware of my dangerous situation.Such a Jing Di Zhi Wa.
After these days, finally I have realized that I was not good in English anymore compared with my classmates--I have lost all my advantages. Since thing has already happened, I have to accept it, analyse it and try my best to keep up with them.
Complains are never useful, but scars. I like the words that the captain in the movie Avatar said,’I like my scar, because it remind me of the dangerous world Pandora. ’ I wrote this blog today as a record, recording my foolish past. I need to wake up from now on or I will absolutely get in big trouble in my college life.
By the way, cheer up, Tian Ye! We are and will always be here with you!
To some extent, we are similar. I used to play computer games and have no time in studying, which leads to my low level grades now. However, I think both of us have realized the seriousness of this problem and I am sure we will make progress together.
ReplyDeleteBoth of you are so modest.To say the truth,I really appreciate your performance in class.And you are a responsible and helpful monitor.I also got poor grades in writing and reading comprehension.Now that we had learned the seriousness,we can make improvement with our endeavour.
ReplyDeleteDon't let the exams upset you too much. It's a alarm to all of us. Besides, you have your own advantage. For example, your spoken English is good,isn't it? So don't feel desperate. You can go further.
ReplyDeleteyes, no need to discourage.it is not what we are now but what we will be in the future that counts. what we sow determines what we reap. i appreciate your idea that you accept what has happened. once you accept, you will make changes and consequently you will make progress and achieve your objective-alas,life is based on such simple patterns.
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